this life

i'd rather have 15 minutes of something than a lifetime of nothing special- steel magnolias

i think i might be going to brazil this summer - hmmm. and that will definitely be God willing. first of all, because of the expense and second of all if i can get my passport and visa in time. oh yeah, and if my boss lets me have the time off. if if if.

i need somebody who will kick me in the butt sometimes.

today was beautiful.

c-dawg - you are cool 

oh my gosh

where is ben?
i just went to see the ring 2. i got home a few minutes ago - midnight. i am the only one here in this big ole house out in the middle of nowhere. eekkk!
this might be a sleepless night - maybe i will let max inside.
hehe

Yes!

my parents are gone for yet another weekend. MUHAHAHAHA. (or something like that) its great! i get to pretend like this is my house.

last weekend i got a taste of that "being on my own" freedom again. makes me yearn to move out soon. if only it didn't cost anything. HAH.

being baptist

i spent the weekend with a friend - who has asked to remain nameless, haha - and on sunday night, we went to her church. the choir was presenting their easter musical. very meaningful service. or it should have been anyway. i have to leave out some really funny details here, for fear of sounding really mean. but, anyway, the kicker happened during the invitation. okay so i'm really trying to focus and listen to God and to my heart (to make up for the lost opportunity the previous 45 minutes) and my friend (who is a very strong Christian by the way) looks over at me with a sudden realization and says ... "when are taxes due???"

LOL. oh MY gosh. that did it - i almost fell out of my chair - and not because the Spirit had moved me.

i had to post this decent one to counter-act the next one. lol 

for you, carla. only for you. HAH 

the world moves for love.
it kneels before it in awe.

tunnel of trees

there's a stretch of road on hwy.5. i think its in between blacksburg and york. its a two lane road that straightens out probably for about a mile and on either side are these very tall trees. right now they're dead. but its beautiful. its like driving through a tunnel of trees.

bringin back the 80s 

the coolest guy around 

asking, believing, receiving 

max - a.k.a. airplane ears 

03-12-05 

"no more a stranger, or a guest, but like a child at home" ...my shepherd will supply my need 

max - the king 

Burton memories

they moved my grandma to a nursing home yesterday. they tried to avoid it as long as they could. about a year ago this time, i went to visit her. she was still living at her old house. it was shortly after my grandpa passed away. i had called her the night before. but when i showed up the next day, she couldn't place me. she hasn't really known me ever since.

strange how the brain works. she had talked to me on the phone just the night before. she knew me by name. 12 hours later she couldn't make the pieces of the puzzle come together all the way. it was almost like i could see in her eyes how much she wanted to figure it out.

my grandpa was a beekeeper among other various and odd things. he also did photography in his basement and he was a sucker for any kind of new tool or gadget. anyway, i remember staying with them when i was young and we would be sitting eating supper. i would look over and see bee stings on my grandpa's arms and hands and neck. i couldn't understand how he could stand so much pain. i guess it doesn't sound so bad, but i thought it was just awful at the time. i will always remember the smell of the honey house and the chewing and chewing of sweet honey comb wax.

honey house